It's you...it's just you...

You were very quiet when I met you for the first time. My first impression was ‘Gosh, he is so tall.’ We got to speak to each other near the end of the picnic. It’s the moment when I told you I love baking and cooking, your eyes revealed your secret to me.

A mutual friend of us told me that you like me. I was stunned. I never thought that you are such an expressive person when you like someone. My first thought was ‘We are not compatible. I gave it a go still as you seem to be a nice guy. The process wasn’t that impressive with misunderstanding/miscommunication hindered us from understanding each other better. You turned things around when you told me that you are good at fishing and even are able to cook a raw fish! I was really impressed! I wanted to know you more ever since…

Things went completely wrong after the kiss. It’s not the kiss that matters. It’s you, the cheeky you, the naughty you and the mischevious you who melts the deepest and darkest side of my heart.

The inexpressive and impassive you makes me wonder if I am the only one who is entangled. Maybe, you are using your own channel in telling me you like me? If yes, I will patiently and carefully listen to that. If not…I will give it a good laugh. To laugh about my silliness and foolishness.

D, would you let me know after reading this?

Emptiness and loneliness

MK and CJ have started their Euro journey this morning. It’s only me facing the emptiness and loneliness of the flat

I catch a cough due to the migration of season. It’s pretty annoying!!! I feel particularly fragile and vulnerable when I am sick. The gloomy and chilly weather really drives me despairing and depressing. I can’t help it, folks! You always know Feiyong is such an emotional animal, don’t you?

A sulky weather and a gloomy me.

It has been so long...where the hell are you? Do you hear my calling? Will you ever be here? Or you will never be here as you never exit...

Goodbye...

My disillusion and disappointment are indescribable at the moment.

This is gonna be the last straw that breaks the camel back.

Things do not seem to work out.

It's time to move on...

Goodbye...

Am i too nice???

It's getting colder, remember to wear your jumper.
It's gonna be rainy, remember to buy an umbrella.

These are few of the ways to be nice and caring to you.

You are nice. If you can be more sensitive to my emotions, i will be so happy...

A simple question such as 'are you all right?' will truely warm my heart.

A big hug can dispel my fear and insecurity.

Am i asking for too much or

Am i being taken for granted just because i am too nice?

Scotland_Edinburgh_Part 2

Our mission today is to hunt for sea monster.

Loch Ness is located at northern Scotland. It is well known for sea monster Nessie. There are rumours going around about the sighting of the monster. However, there is no conclusive evidence to prove the existence of the creature. It’s merely a myth that surrounds the beautiful highland.

The journey is long and daunting. It took us almost more than half day to reach the destination. Nonetheless, I enjoy the scenery and surroundings pretty much. It’s so tranquil and serene.

On the way to Loch Ness.

Loch Ness and Urquhart castle.

Mission failed as we didn't witness the sea monster by the end of our trip...

Rich dark chocolate cake

185g unsalted butter, chopped

250g dark chocolate bits

215g self raising flour

40g cocoa powder

375g caster sugar

3 eggs, lightly beaten

Topping:

20g unsalted butter, chopped (1)

125g dark chocolate, chopped (2)

*Mix (1) + (2) and stir well in a heatproof bowl

1. Preheat the oven to 160 celsius. Grease a 22cm springform tin. Place the butter and chocolate bits in a small bowl and melt it.

2. Sift the flavour and cocoa into a large bowl. Combine the melted butter and chocolate mixture, sugar and egg. Then, add 250ml water and mix well. Add to the flour and cocoa and stir until well combined.

3. Pour the mixture into the prepared tin and bake for 1 hour 30 minutes.

4. Serve 10-12 people.

This is the chocolate cake that i used to bake for him. I could still remember how happy he was whenever he tasted the cake. He ever told his friends this is the best chocolate cake that he has ever tried.

I have never baked this cake ever since we departed.

There's a sign.

Whenever i am in love, i feel like cooking/baking for someone.

I feel like cooking/baking for someone lately...

A sign that signifies endless sorrow and poignance.

I wish i wasn't that nice

I wish i could be sensible

I wish i could just let you go...

Scotland_Edinburgh_Part 1

I love ghost/horror stories/movies. Everything to do with paranormal phenomena and supernatural will drive my valvor.

I used to watch an American documentary introducing the most haunted place on the earth. Edinburgh is one the places.

Here i am Edinburgh.

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The journey to Edinburgh takes 4 hours and 45 minutes. Obviously, it's time to replenish my energy. Yes, sleeping.

There were string of festivals going on by the time we arrived and the main street was flooded with tourists!!

Our 'not so budget hostel'. Donkey Hostel. (If i still remember the name correctly)

We need to pay GBP30 per night person for a room of four. Guess what? We still need to put on the bedsheet, pillow case and quilt case by our own. !"£$%^ Nonetheless, it's a nice hostel but a little bit pricey. I particulary like the interior design of this hostel. It's so colourful.

The bathroom + toilet

Our room!

It's time for lunch!!

We went to this take away shop and the food are yummy!!! Guess what i had, fish and chips!!! For those of you who knows me well, i DON'T eat FISH AND CHIPS and it's bloody oily and unhealthy. However, i broke the rules!!! Hence, i realise one thing, i only eat yummy and unhealthy food. Hehe...

The fish and chip is quite cheap! It costs five pounds + a drink.

Edinburgh castle.

A prison! This is one of the haunted place in the castle. Can you see something???

There are many dungeons in Edinburgh castle and here is one of them. It looks spooky and errie!! No wonder this castle is notoriously named as one of the most haunted castle on earth!!!

All right! We have enough of castle. Now, it's time to share with you something.

Haggis, one of the Scottish food, is made up of sheep’s heart, liver and lungs and minced with onion, oatmeal, suet, spices, salt, mixed with stock. To challenge myself, I tried it. I personally don’t like the taste as the smell is so distinct after having the first bite! It made me sick!! However, i strongly advise you to try as you might like it!!! :)

Night time! Party time.

We went to a fantastic club near our hostel. The club has four levels with different music played in each floor. It’s cool!!!

My mates! CJ, Thinesh, Yoland and Reuben

Tipsy Feiyong trying to be bootylicious!!!

We met some interesting Scottish in the club. There was a Scottish guy wearing a traditional Scottish skirt and a naughty lady pulled up his skirt. Yes!!!! I saw something!!! A banana and a nut!!!! Oh my gosh!!!! Hahaha…

My first day in Edinburgh.