Let's say a prayer

Dad has suffered from eye infection after the operation of cataract.

Sister has been made redundant at work.

I pray that they can get through the rocky time.

Can i ?

I am not sure if this is good or bad. It's good as the cooling off period is over. It's bad as things will never be the same again.

I am expected to be understanding, reasonable and patient from now on. I can't be candid with you as you would think i am unreasonable, i can't ask more from you as you have done so much for me. I am losing myself bit by bit.

I don't like this feeling at all.

Can i still be myself when i am with you?

Can i?

Are you ready?

It has been two weeks since we have this on and off break.

I am willing to be a better me because i love you . However, there are occassions that i would like to be myself, just be the way i am. Would you be able to accept that?

Our background and culture are very different. We have to understand the differences before finding solutions to fix it. Are you willing to do that?

My weekend

It was a long weekend.

With MK's visit and the kick off of Great Singapore Sale, my weekend was good!

How i realise my life in Singapore is just working, working and working!

The deepest part in my heart still enjoys the vibrant and glamorous part of Merlion City.

If he was there with me, it would mark a beautiful end of my weekend.

I wonder if he thinks of me like the way i do.

???

I really have no idea why those random people like to leave some unconstructive comments on my blog.

I just don't understand!

Day 10

Finally, the day has come.

I have pretty much known what you are going to tell me.

I am not sure how i can prove to you my determination and persistence.

But i won't give up.

I don't want to lose you.

Unwell

I haven't been feeling very well lately. I am not sure if it is because of my relationship problem lately. I start losing appetite. I eat just for the sake of getting some energy for my daily activities.

Also, i suspect myself for getting floater.

It's time to consult doctor to clear the doubts.

Health is wealth.

Please take good care of your body as the life journey is still long.

Day 7

不再强求。。。

等

心理好难受。
等待，是很煎熬的吧！
就当做是对自己的惩罚吧！
不管答案是什么，我都会再去挽回。
唉。。。

Day 6

I will remember my mistakes and not to do it again.

I am not sure if it is too late to salvage this.

I will never give up without giving it a try again.

Good luck to myself!

Day 5

I screwed up again.

Why do i never learn?

If i keep doing this, i will only push us to the edge of the cliff.

I won't do this again.

Sorry D.

Day 4

Hi D, how's your day?

I wasn't feeling so well today and i didn't have the appetite to eat. It has something to do with what happened lately.

Sigh...

Just want to tell you that, i miss you.

Day 3

Finally, i took the courage to give you a call.

I felt so relieved after telling you how i feel.

Thing will never be the same again.

Day 2

How's it going D? Did you sleep well?

My day was busy and my work can never seem to be finished!

I went to have Ramen with my colleagues for dinner and it tasted good! Think you will like it as well!

What did you have dinner?

I had an urge to call you but i didn't. I will push you away if i did so. The least i can do for you is to leave you in peace.

I have been thinking a lot for the past two days. You have done so much for me in the past few months and i didn't seem to acknowledge your efforts. All i did was getting upset with you again and again. I am such a terrible girlfriend.

I will understand if you choose to give up.

I really will.

Have a good day tomorrow.

Day 1

First day.

A cloudy and drizzle day.

My heart is so empty.

Do you feel the same too?

再见了，D

很难过。

这段感情已走到尽头。

是我太任性了吧？

我并没有好好的去珍惜你。

现在后悔也来不及了。

我，祝福你。

愿你安康。

The end

Finally, it has come to an end.

It's no one's fault.

It's just not meant to be.

We still can't make it to 13/6/10.

why???????????????????????????

Would you stop making me frustrated all the time???

Why wouldn't you just do the things that will keep me happy??

Why???? Why??? Why???

???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Is that right?

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.

小小的幸福

最近的我，好喜欢和家人聚在一起的时光。

工作忙碌了五天, 最期待的就是周末的到来。

和家人聊聊天，说说笑笑的感觉真是好好！这就是所谓的幸福吧！

我不知何时再远行。但，我会好好的珍惜能陪在父母身边的日子。

爸，妈和妹，我好爱好爱你们！

爱是包容 Love is to embrace

最近看了一本小说，作者的感言让我有感而发。

‘不管懂不懂，不管能不能接受，因为爱对方，所以无条件的包容他的一切，包括他的选择。。。’

很令人动容的一番说辞。

我会好好的学习，好好的去爱你， 不再让你倍感压力。

也请你好好的珍惜我。。。。

Love is to embrace.

I might not be able to understand and accept the rationale behind of all these, but i am willing to embrace you unconditionally including your decisions.

Just because i love you.

I will learn to love you.

Please cherish me as well.

50RRy

You never ask for more. You just want me to be understanding and reasonable.

I never ask for more. I just want you to love me with every bit of your heart.

These are the simple requests we want from each other and it causes the biggest problem in our relationship.

When you didn't fulfill my little wishes, i get haywired and you get stressed.

When you are stressed, you can't be the loving and suppportive guy that i am in love with. This causes my upsetness and grumpiness. This vicious cycle has slowly driven this relationship to the edge of the cliff.

If someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean that they don't love you. This is what SH told me. I only realise that i have been pushily wanting you to love me the way i want without considering how much you have done for me.

You might not know how to love me with every bit of your heart but you have been loving me with every bit of your patience. Why haven't i realised?

I am sorry D.

Are you still willing to embrace me once again?

Patchy path

Our relationship is facing a patchy path.

Are we able to weather the storm this time?

If we really love each other...

we will.