Speeding kills!

The fatal accidents in the newspaper are really shocking and gruesome.

Why do people like to enjoy the moment of speeding and risk their and others life?

A moment of pleasure leads to lifelong regret and endless pain to your loved one.

Is that worth it?

Please drive safely.

For you and the rest.

I hate it!

I really hate the way you make decision!

Marriage

Marriage is a life assurance if you marry a right guy.

If not, it will bring endless misery and heartbreak.

And it is better off to be alone.

Just hold my hands

Just hold my hands.

And tells me that ' It's all right, i will be here for you, no matter what'.

*Picture is uploaded at the courtesy of Summerloving

Love the way you hurt

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you hurt, I love the way you hurt

I seriously doubt if you can be supportive when i need you.

I just need you to listen to me without judging me.

Do you ever realise how it hurts when you were mean to me?

You never realise.

As i was being patient and attentive all the time when you need me.

Is there an apology for hurting my feelings?

Never.

乱

心情很混乱。
我不知道要如何才能把问题解决。

离开，究竟是逃避抑或答案？
我很困惑。

为什么我们之间不能简单些？
真的好累啊。。。

I don't give a damn anymore!

I have been having trouble reconnect myself to the circle where i used to belong.

What has been changed? The people or the environment?

To be honest, i am quite happy the way it is.

I don't have to be someone else, i just have to be myself.

After all these years, i don't give a damn anymore.

After all these years...

Things have changed. However, i am not adaptable enough to embrace the changes and move forward.

We can't get what we want in both hands.

I just have to believe that what i have gained is more than what i have lost.

Feeling weak...

I am weak and vulnerable at the moment.

You said i shouldn't have any doubts on our relationship.

Can i trust you on that?

No clue

I really have no clue why some people like leaving meaningless comments on my blog especially in Chinese.

Strange!

Get well soon

I am kind of worried recently as my dad seems to be weaker after the eye surgery. He certainly met a incompetent doctor! I am damn pissed off with that!

He has to undergo another surgery to get the eye fixed. I just pray that he will be fine after that.

Dad, get well soon.

No matter what...

No matter what happens. you are still the love that i am deeply in love with...

Bitterness

There is only word can describe how i feel now.

Bitterness.

Well Done Spain!!

I am kind of fatigued and weary at that moment after staying up to watch World Cup 2010 final.

Congratulations to Spain, my favorite team, to win the title.

Well done!!

See ya in Brazil 2014!

My holidays has finally come to an end.

It's time to be back to the office and begin my hectic life.

Sigh...

The problem is the distance

If you don't know how to do it, just let me know.

We'll work things out.

Doing nothing is passive.

You are not as readable as me. I find it hard to understand you sometimes.

Is this what you want?

Am i doing too much?

The biggest hindrance is the distance.

Would you?

Would you please pay more attention to me when i am fragile and vulnerable at this moment?

Will this day ever come?

The time that we spent was great.

I love you so much D.

It's so hard to say goodbye again.

You couldn't answer when i asked you how to remove the distance between us. It's sad to see you in silence.

I won't push you for that.

I just hope that you would provide me with the security and certainty of this relationship one day.

Will this day ever come?

My equation

Brisbane = Sunny

Sydney = Rainy

Brisbane + Sydney = Weary

Weary = Feiyong

Crying~~~

It's my holidays and not yours!

You want me to promise you not to get haywired when i am there.

Do you know that you have hurt my feelings? You sounded like i am the sole person to be blamed for all the arguments. Don't you have a part to play as well?

It's my holidays. My holidays to relax and slow down the pace of life. Don't sound like this is just a holiday to visit you. Don't sound like i am a dependant girlfriend who needs your company all the time.

Please try to put yourself in my shoes.

好累

不想再这样下去了，
真的好累。
我或许还没有勇气向你说再见，
但是我已想好好的为自己做些什么，
不再受制于你。。。

Let's say a prayer

Dad has suffered from eye infection after the operation of cataract.

Sister has been made redundant at work.

I pray that they can get through the rocky time.

Can i ?

I am not sure if this is good or bad. It's good as the cooling off period is over. It's bad as things will never be the same again.

I am expected to be understanding, reasonable and patient from now on. I can't be candid with you as you would think i am unreasonable, i can't ask more from you as you have done so much for me. I am losing myself bit by bit.

I don't like this feeling at all.

Can i still be myself when i am with you?

Can i?

Are you ready?

It has been two weeks since we have this on and off break.

I am willing to be a better me because i love you . However, there are occassions that i would like to be myself, just be the way i am. Would you be able to accept that?

Our background and culture are very different. We have to understand the differences before finding solutions to fix it. Are you willing to do that?

My weekend

It was a long weekend.

With MK's visit and the kick off of Great Singapore Sale, my weekend was good!

How i realise my life in Singapore is just working, working and working!

The deepest part in my heart still enjoys the vibrant and glamorous part of Merlion City.

If he was there with me, it would mark a beautiful end of my weekend.

I wonder if he thinks of me like the way i do.

???

I really have no idea why those random people like to leave some unconstructive comments on my blog.

I just don't understand!

Day 10

Finally, the day has come.

I have pretty much known what you are going to tell me.

I am not sure how i can prove to you my determination and persistence.

But i won't give up.

I don't want to lose you.

Unwell

I haven't been feeling very well lately. I am not sure if it is because of my relationship problem lately. I start losing appetite. I eat just for the sake of getting some energy for my daily activities.

Also, i suspect myself for getting floater.

It's time to consult doctor to clear the doubts.

Health is wealth.

Please take good care of your body as the life journey is still long.

Day 7

不再强求。。。

等

心理好难受。
等待，是很煎熬的吧！
就当做是对自己的惩罚吧！
不管答案是什么，我都会再去挽回。
唉。。。

Day 6

I will remember my mistakes and not to do it again.

I am not sure if it is too late to salvage this.

I will never give up without giving it a try again.

Good luck to myself!

Day 5

I screwed up again.

Why do i never learn?

If i keep doing this, i will only push us to the edge of the cliff.

I won't do this again.

Sorry D.

Day 4

Hi D, how's your day?

I wasn't feeling so well today and i didn't have the appetite to eat. It has something to do with what happened lately.

Sigh...

Just want to tell you that, i miss you.

Day 3

Finally, i took the courage to give you a call.

I felt so relieved after telling you how i feel.

Thing will never be the same again.

Day 2

How's it going D? Did you sleep well?

My day was busy and my work can never seem to be finished!

I went to have Ramen with my colleagues for dinner and it tasted good! Think you will like it as well!

What did you have dinner?

I had an urge to call you but i didn't. I will push you away if i did so. The least i can do for you is to leave you in peace.

I have been thinking a lot for the past two days. You have done so much for me in the past few months and i didn't seem to acknowledge your efforts. All i did was getting upset with you again and again. I am such a terrible girlfriend.

I will understand if you choose to give up.

I really will.

Have a good day tomorrow.

Day 1

First day.

A cloudy and drizzle day.

My heart is so empty.

Do you feel the same too?

再见了，D

很难过。

这段感情已走到尽头。

是我太任性了吧？

我并没有好好的去珍惜你。

现在后悔也来不及了。

我，祝福你。

愿你安康。

The end

Finally, it has come to an end.

It's no one's fault.

It's just not meant to be.

We still can't make it to 13/6/10.

why???????????????????????????

Would you stop making me frustrated all the time???

Why wouldn't you just do the things that will keep me happy??

Why???? Why??? Why???

???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Is that right?

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.

小小的幸福

最近的我，好喜欢和家人聚在一起的时光。

工作忙碌了五天, 最期待的就是周末的到来。

和家人聊聊天，说说笑笑的感觉真是好好！这就是所谓的幸福吧！

我不知何时再远行。但，我会好好的珍惜能陪在父母身边的日子。

爸，妈和妹，我好爱好爱你们！

爱是包容 Love is to embrace

最近看了一本小说，作者的感言让我有感而发。

‘不管懂不懂，不管能不能接受，因为爱对方，所以无条件的包容他的一切，包括他的选择。。。’

很令人动容的一番说辞。

我会好好的学习，好好的去爱你， 不再让你倍感压力。

也请你好好的珍惜我。。。。

Love is to embrace.

I might not be able to understand and accept the rationale behind of all these, but i am willing to embrace you unconditionally including your decisions.

Just because i love you.

I will learn to love you.

Please cherish me as well.

50RRy

You never ask for more. You just want me to be understanding and reasonable.

I never ask for more. I just want you to love me with every bit of your heart.

These are the simple requests we want from each other and it causes the biggest problem in our relationship.

When you didn't fulfill my little wishes, i get haywired and you get stressed.

When you are stressed, you can't be the loving and suppportive guy that i am in love with. This causes my upsetness and grumpiness. This vicious cycle has slowly driven this relationship to the edge of the cliff.

If someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean that they don't love you. This is what SH told me. I only realise that i have been pushily wanting you to love me the way i want without considering how much you have done for me.

You might not know how to love me with every bit of your heart but you have been loving me with every bit of your patience. Why haven't i realised?

I am sorry D.

Are you still willing to embrace me once again?

Patchy path

Our relationship is facing a patchy path.

Are we able to weather the storm this time?

If we really love each other...

we will.

Missing my DD at this moment...

My home is my habour

A storm has caused a stir lately.

It brings tears. remorse and disappointment.

Because of this inescapable storm, it dawns on me the first and final habour is always called home.

My lovely superglue

It's your persistence and my hesistation to make it through after every single storm.

It's your patience and understanding hold me back every time i want to move on.

You are a superglue.

A superglue that stucks me for more than 1.5 years.

You are my superglue.

My lovely and adorable superglue that i want to be with for a long long time.

SOS

I am struggling and suffocating now...

Te Amo

I don't trust love but i want to love.

I am not sure when this love will fade.

I can assure the completeness and faithfulness of my heart while i am still loving you.

I hope for the day that you say those words to me.

The decision

I am not sure if i have made the right decision.

My heart aches.

This is transitory.

I will get over it.

The end

No matter how hard we try, you can never love me like the way i do.

A quick update

Hi guys, just to say a quick Hi. You must be wondering where the hell i am now.

Yes, i am in hell now =(

Works are so hectic! Can you imagine i work at least 80 hours per week in the previous month? Gosh! Am glad that i am still alive!

My mind is filled up with deadlines , deadlines and deadlines. 5 entities with deadlines coming one another within two weeks really tested my resilience. I survived! A big cheers to myself!

I also had a wonderful Chinese New Year (CNY)! The booze, fun and happiness really rejuvenated my energy.

Of course, D's visit during CNY made a big difference as well.

Oh, i fall in love with him even more.

Tiger is fierce.

Let's be fierce in tiger year in facing all the adversities!

Cheers!

Mum, dad, me and D

Happy 2010!

Today is 10/01/10. It's still not too late to say Happy New Year to everyone! :)

A brand new year signifies the beginning of new things. What ever happened in the past is passed. We carry forward the good things and dispel the bad things.

2010 is an interesting year. It is a year to assess my capability and restore my confidence level.

I am not the strongest but i am definitely not as weak as you think.

I will prove that you are wrong.

I promise!

Changes

When you thought everything stays the same, it has actually changed subtly. What we can do is adapting ourselves to it.

I will acknowledge the changes and adapt to it.

This is the only way to make me feel better...