End

I never expect this to happen soon. I thought we still can reconcile and mend the relationship. I was wrong. When you decide to end this, my heartache is indescribable. I couldn't stop the tears from dripping, it's the pieces of my broken heart.

How i wish i would hold your hand and teach you to love and care. How i wish my mischievousness would make you grin again. It's not gonna happen now...

The memories that we shared will never be forgotten.

It's a beautiful collision that ever warmed and solaced my heart.

It makes me believe i still have the strength to love someone, to love someone like you...

251008

A year older and wiser. I wanna make three wishes.

I hope my family and friends are safe and healthy.

I hope i can find my way again.

I hope love will find me again.

A birthday without my family. However, it was still good with some cool friends and you celebrated for me.

My birthday will be perfect, if you have put more efforts.

I wouldn't ask for more. I just want you to spend more remaining time with me. Am i asking for too much?

You always say no, i am not asking for too much. Nonetheless, my requests are rejected again and again. Am i caring too much or you are caring too little?

I don't want to broach anymore as it's enough. More than enough!

To distance myself from this seems to be the best solution.

Things will be difference when you come back from the trip.

Crossed to the power of N!!!

Bloody crossed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are a pig! Pig head! Pig head Pig head!

Always expect me to do things without putting efforts! How would you?????????????

Do you ever realise I AM BLOODY TIRED AND EXAUSTED NOW!!

Why don't you understand??????????????????????????????????????????????????

Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tears

Words can't describe my sadness and sorrow.

I can't feel the passion, infactuation and appreciation.

It's loneliness and desire that bring us together.

I shouldn't ask for more.

It's only one ending.

Tears.

*When you know how to love and care someone, you'll know how i feel.

Sorry...

Sorry for being wilful and bratty, i didn't mean to hurt your feelings.

Will you embrace me one more time?

Scotland_Edinburgh_final part

We joined a local free tour. The tour guide, who is a Canadian, is pretty good! At least, I know a little bit of Edinburgh historic.

The free local tour

Our tour guide

It’s such a shame that I didn’t join the ghost tour. It must be damn exciting!

Isn't that eerie?

Can't remember the name of this momument. It looks pretty burnt right?

The city view of Edinburgh

Local soft drink-IRN BRU. You can't get it elsewhere but only in Scotland. The taste is lovely!

That’s my Edinburgh trip. Thank you very much.

It's only heartbreak and sadness

It's only sadness and poignance.

There won't be any happiness as i am never blessed in love.

*When your love is not reciprocated in the same manner, you'll only left with heartbreak.

Maybe it's not meant to be...

D, our relationship will be different, if you know how to love and care for someone.

Maybe, i am not the right one.

Maybe, it's not meant to be.

Maybe, that's the end.

It's you...it's just you...

You were very quiet when I met you for the first time. My first impression was ‘Gosh, he is so tall.’ We got to speak to each other near the end of the picnic. It’s the moment when I told you I love baking and cooking, your eyes revealed your secret to me.

A mutual friend of us told me that you like me. I was stunned. I never thought that you are such an expressive person when you like someone. My first thought was ‘We are not compatible. I gave it a go still as you seem to be a nice guy. The process wasn’t that impressive with misunderstanding/miscommunication hindered us from understanding each other better. You turned things around when you told me that you are good at fishing and even are able to cook a raw fish! I was really impressed! I wanted to know you more ever since…

Things went completely wrong after the kiss. It’s not the kiss that matters. It’s you, the cheeky you, the naughty you and the mischevious you who melts the deepest and darkest side of my heart.

The inexpressive and impassive you makes me wonder if I am the only one who is entangled. Maybe, you are using your own channel in telling me you like me? If yes, I will patiently and carefully listen to that. If not…I will give it a good laugh. To laugh about my silliness and foolishness.

D, would you let me know after reading this?

Emptiness and loneliness

MK and CJ have started their Euro journey this morning. It’s only me facing the emptiness and loneliness of the flat

I catch a cough due to the migration of season. It’s pretty annoying!!! I feel particularly fragile and vulnerable when I am sick. The gloomy and chilly weather really drives me despairing and depressing. I can’t help it, folks! You always know Feiyong is such an emotional animal, don’t you?

A sulky weather and a gloomy me.

It has been so long...where the hell are you? Do you hear my calling? Will you ever be here? Or you will never be here as you never exit...

Goodbye...

My disillusion and disappointment are indescribable at the moment.

This is gonna be the last straw that breaks the camel back.

Things do not seem to work out.

It's time to move on...

Goodbye...

Am i too nice???

It's getting colder, remember to wear your jumper.
It's gonna be rainy, remember to buy an umbrella.

These are few of the ways to be nice and caring to you.

You are nice. If you can be more sensitive to my emotions, i will be so happy...

A simple question such as 'are you all right?' will truely warm my heart.

A big hug can dispel my fear and insecurity.

Am i asking for too much or

Am i being taken for granted just because i am too nice?