My 27th birthday

Birthday cake from Belinda and Ian

Belinda, Ian, Dave and me dining in an Indian restaurant on my birthday

These were the presents/cards that I received for my 27th birthday.

Victoria’s Secret Pink-Body lotion, fragrance and lip gloss. MK, CJ, you guys really know what I like.

I still haven’t got over the dissolution of our fellowship. This will be continued on 23/11/08, I promise.

Beckham’s fragrance.

Belinda, thanks for the gift. Not to mention the birthday cake and dinner. It warmed my heart on that chilly night.

Birthday card and cute bear from Huey Voon and Tania

Huey Voon, you are one of those who will never forget my birthday. Your birthday greeting will always reach me no matter how far I am. Our 11 years friendship ‘ is not fake’. Lol

Tania, thanks for remembering my birthday correctly. Still remember, you ever sent a text to Fen , but the text accidentally sent to me instead, asking her when my birthday is. Lol All right! Don’t get mad! Hug Hug!

Your encouragement really makes me weep. You are one of those who will stand by me no matter what.

I also wanna thank those friends who ever sent a message or text to me. It means a lot.

I haven’t forgotten you, Dave. Lol

Thanks for the Liverpool cup. You always buy something which is out of my expectation. To be honest, I am not a Liverpool fan. I am just a fan of FIFA World Cup. However, I will cherish this cup as this is the present that you bought for me. You’ll never walk alone. I will always bear that in mind.

Also, thanks for arranging the London Eye. The view is not spectacular but the company made a different.

We might not be able to hold hands till the end of the days. I truly glad that you ever become part of my life.

Thank you to all of you.

It's a warmth and heartfelt birthday.

NEVER EVER!

I will never ever get over what happened last night. It’s a massive slap on my face. You have betrayed the trust that I have on you.

Make me stand in the coldness, drip the tears and wait for you are the best gift that you ever give me.

I will never ever forget what you have done.

NEVER!

Bitter differences

Feeling bitter.

Am i too demanding, or you are too opinionated.

The arguments really make me weary.

If we can't agree and compromise,

We'll never make it...

It's me NOT you

It’s time to leave all the sincerity, passion and genuineness behind. It won’t do me any good rather than leaving disillusion, sadness and heartbreak.

I don’t want to be a fool anymore. I won’t let you rule my minds, soul and heart again. I will extinguish the passion, affection and desire that ever lifted my spirit. All the feelings will be imprisoned and frozen indefinitely. I’ll be emotionless, impassive and sensible from now on.

Don’t you get assuming and invincible after tasting only a portion of the candy. You have no idea who your master is. Yeah, it’s me, who gives you the chance to taste the candy that you can only dream on.

I’ll show you how capable I am to mesmerise and infatuate someone based on the qualities I have.

I'll prove that i am the one who takes control and NOT YOU.

So long, farewell

The toughest, loneliest and saddest weekend ever in London!

MK and CJ finally bid farewell to London and back to Malaysia for good.

From the moment that I stepped into the flat after seeing them off, emptiness, sadness and loneliness started creeping in. The fear of being alone and left behind is so distinct which made me suffocated.

Why am I here? What am I doing here? I wouldn’t stop questioning myself. I should have gone back with them, leaving all the sadness, heartbreak and frustration behind.

I wanted to stop battling. The unsettled heart really drove me to the edge of the cliff. However, I need to grit my teeth to keep fighting. I need to make sure that I am going back home in one piece. I need to make sure that my beloved family and friends see the confident and brightest me back to their arms. Hence, I can’t be that selfish! I can’t just think of myself. They are so many people caring for me, eagerly waiting for me to get reunited. Just because of that, I will take very good care of myself. I will pick up the pieces bit by bit although some pieces are already lost somewhere…

I will be strong and tough for the time being. Please wait for me to come back.

Another 17 days to go….

A whisper to MK and CJ

You guys are the greatest companions despite the arguments and squabble. Sometimes, i didn't tell you my problems and worries. The presence of you guys solaced my unsettled heart. I know you guys are there. I wonder if i'll ever come here if two of you didn't.

It's really hard for the first two days. Chichele is not a home anymore. The new tenant seems to be an intruder to our house! Sorry! I can't stop having this thought. Lol

Do you still remember how excited we were when we first arrived. We were so naive and silly. A year here is really an unforgettable experience. We smiled, we cried and we laughed. It's something that shared exclusively among us. Only us!

It's a shame that we can't go back together. It's a shame that we can't mark a beautiful end to this fellowship with a lighter heart. However, we are from a blessed family. Grandmum will always watch us from heaven. We'll weather the storm.

Three cheers for MK, CJ and Feiyong

One cheers for our fellowship
Second cheers for our courage
Three cheers for our happiness

I'll see you guys fairly soon.

I'll be back in one piece. I promise...

我很好 I am fine

沙发上睡着　
孤单冷醒的破晓
冷的面条　
热的泪痕　
啤酒在苦笑

当时的煎熬　
当时的心痛如绞
天终于亮了　
遗憾终于退潮
终于能够恨不再疯
泪不再掉　
心不跑
一定会有一个人
一段新的美好

谁让我拥抱　
谁让我再一次心跳　
就算爱情让我再次的跌倒
伤痕也要是一种骄傲

谁让我拥抱
谁让我疯狂的心跳　
就算明天整个城市要倾倒
也让我爱到最后一秒

丢掉电影票
删掉信件跟合照
洗了床单　
剪了头发　
清空了烦恼

恨可以很小
小到眼泪能冲掉
我 现在很好　
可以重新起跑

终于能够恨不再疯　
泪不再掉　
心不跑
一定会有一个人　
一段新的美好

谁让我拥抱
谁让我再一次心跳　
就算爱情让我再次的跌倒
伤痕也要是一种骄傲

谁让我拥抱　
谁让我疯狂的心跳　
就算明天整个城市要倾倒
也让我爱到最后一秒

地铁涌出了人潮　
幸福涌出了预兆
我会找回当初对爱天真的霸道

谁让我拥抱　
谁让我再一次心跳　
就算爱情让我再次的跌倒
伤痕也要是一种骄傲

谁让我拥抱　
谁让我疯狂的心跳　
就算明天整个城市要倾倒
也让我爱到最后一秒

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8tlX2T-OKg

你一定要好，一定要很好！

You're fine as you always are!

A final attempt

I don't want to give up just like that.

I wanna clarify.

I wanna know if you mean it.

I wanna tell you how i feel.

I wanna know if you still care.

I wanna try one more time...